Paloma
At twenty-five years old
You would’ve thought I had everything figured out.
Wrong.
Everyone’s lives are a well written play,
Mine is a first draft.
There’s a palpable darkness.
I spend nights sitting on the edge, but I never jump.
I would like to jump.
Every day I ask myself, what the hell keeps me here?
Push me.
I would like to be a wild lion
that rules the jungle,
but I have to be a dove
with broken wings.
White dove.
Admired.
They all want to touch me
and have me in their hands.
None repair my wings.
Why is perfection the only option?
Is failure not human?
Am I human?
Why am I here?
I'm yelling at you!
I’ve become deaf with my screams
And still you ignore me.
You ignore my daily prayer.
You’re supposed to love me,
unconditionally.
You ignore my power.
You have made me small.
Small and forgotten.